Ive come to a point where I am no longer angry, no longer sad but plain tired. come to a point to face reality and understand that this is not just a bed of roses but is gonna be extremely tough and difficult. Ive come to a point where i realise that this is all part and parcel of growing up and if i cannot take it then things will just slowly fall apart. I've come to a point where wiating is the only way to go and I can't honestly do much about anything right now. I don't know if this is good or if this is even truly how I feel but right now just very very damn tired. Hate him for making me go through all this and feeling this way. Hate him for not being the better person but making me go through all of this. well i guess the best thing from this situation is knowing that I have lots of supportive friends. Really very grateful for them, sometimes I wonder how they can stand my sadness, insecurity. It's all so disgusting and very unlike me. So grateful that they were by my side all this while. Thanks guys, although most of you wiill never get to see this. Thanks for listening to me rant/whine/cry almost everyday. thanks for coming down when I am upser. Thanks for going to places with me and doing things with me to distract me and really thanks for the friendship, so glad to have met and known all of you (: time to carry on with life and figure out how to end lessons. I'm so happy im leaving. Time for a good break to doall i want including slacking, reading, shopping, talking long walks alone. meeting people, doing volunteer work, sleeping and many many things. Need to find new things in life to fall in love with and most importantly anything that makes me happy. I think I've been too unhappy for a long time.