I am really tired now but I need to blog and rant this out before I no longer remember it. omgosh i am so not enjoying myself teaching now. it really is so tiring and I hate how unorganised the system is and how I have to keep changing my lessons plans so that I cover enough for the teachers to set their term paper. doesn't help that the dude whom im covering takes like 2/3 weeks to reply my email and by the time he does I alr resolved my issue on whether or not to print those worksheets. one more "Miss Ang" or "teacher" about inane questions, I am going to explode. Omgosh I really have no patience with things like "What is an empire" or "what does the f word mean" or another 100000 of those crazy questions. I know I am supposed to be patient because I am moulding the future of our youths and blahblahblah but omg i hate dealing with sec 1s because these are the kinda questions I have to entertain every single day and to be frank, I think I can't do it. Plus the lists of interviews I have to go for irritates me till no end because the dates keep changing and I have to keep arranging and re-arranging my schedule and hello I am not the free-est person on earth pls stop cancelling on me as and when and expect me to come down! and it's not like I am in demand or what, it's just SMU interviews and some random ones. it's the same old organisations, stat boards like STB/HDB hasn't called me up yet!!! okaay guess they are gonna reject me!!!! ): ): Im so sad, sigh it's going to be such a sad world if no straight A= no calls from stat boards, what is this!!?! And it is so hard for me to find things for the girls to do in my absence, like if I miss a Sec 3 lesson which I am going to very soon, I have to find things to occupy them for 1 hour 10 mins which is a very long time. and no one can teach for me since I am handling the whole sec 3 history all by myself. and when I give them work I have to mark ahhh siannnnnnnn. and it's hard to find people who can swap lessons with me so I don't miss curriculum time and it's even harder to get the girls to stay back cause they can't find time for my history lessons with their busy schedules of CCA, SYF practices and a whole load of enrichment they have. HOW. HOW?!! argh I bet im gonna get fired by the constant taking of leave!!! sighs. yeah and ive to prepare and read up for smu usp thingy tmr but I barely have the energy to do so. i just came back from a learning journey trip with them and I had a splitting headache throughout. endured a million questions from them and now I just want to collapse on my bed and sleep 10 hours again like I did yesterday! but i cannot proscrastinate anymore, especially when I have to redo my lesson and lesson plans for the week arghhhhhhhhhhh. OKAY I CAN'T WAIT TILL I STOP TEACHING AND REST. MY LIFE SUCKS. ):